ok i think i have mellowed. im breathing easiER now, but still on edge. company help, supportive company definitely helps. i still want to collapse to the ground occasionally when i think about this "predicament" i have found myself in, when i think about it all; it friggin weighs alot!! and i want to fall to the ground and shake it out.
I can move on from this, I will move on from it. This is not the end of the world and yess it is going to be hard but no one said it was ever going to be easy so i have to go through it live learn and be better